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I did Zumba today and wanted the girls on the videos abs!  It was much fun though and I was dripping with sweat! Definately a fun workout! 

Today was a hard day for me.  Not in the diet or workout sense.  I really feel like I seem to be able to have all that under control.  Working out at home seems to have gotten easier because Lizzy has found a new independence and she just plays while I work out.  I do feel like I need to figure out how I want to go about doing a more strict diet but that is doable.  I was feeling down today and realized that even when I am doing some things right it never seems to be good enough.  I don't mean good enough for anyone else but its just not good enough for myself and I get extremely overwhelmed with that idea.  I can think of a long list of things that I am not doing well enough or just not getting done at all. (I'll spare you of the actual list). Today I felt..."I just cant do it all."  One of the things I have really been focusing on doing is reading my scriptures every day and that has started to slip since I have been putting so much energy into working out and loosing weight.  After I sat in the bath and cried I got up and decided to read my scriptures.  One of my FAVORITE scriptures since high school came to my mind and I felt prompted to read Ether 12:27 which writes, "And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them." 

It occurred to me that while Heavenly Father does not want me to feel inadequate or down on myself he does however want me to have the desire to be better.  And with that I came up with a list of goals that I feel like need to be working on that will help me make time and balance all the things that I want to do better.  I figure if he is going to make my weaknesses- strengths then I better do my part.

-I am going to go to bed with a clean house.  (every night the kitchen is a mess and Lizzy's toys are strewn all over the house-I figure if I clean it up the night before while she is sleeping its one less thing I have to do the next day while she is awake)
-I am going to spend less time on Facebook or mindlessly looking at other blogs
-I wake up every morning before Lizzy and usually come straight to the computer.  From now on I am going to read my scriptures, pray and make my bed before she wakes up instead of coming to the computer
-I would like to try and set aside 1 hour a day where I am working with Lizzy, one on one trying to teach her or play with her.  ( I feel very much lately like I don't make enough time for her and while I am literally with her every hour except while she is sleeping most days a lot of it isn't one on one interactions)
-I would really like to set aside an hour or 2 days a week where I am doing something hands on.  Something that makes me feel like I have accomplished something. 
-I am going to plan meals more diligently every week.  (This is something I have been trying to do for the past month or so and haven't been very good about it every week).
-Most nights I make it to bed before 10pm so I am going to try and get up by 6:30am.  That is easily 8 hours and I know that waking up early and going to bed early is important for good health!

I am sure my list could go on but for now that is all.